So much WANT!

oh Castle is back on.. all right Castle has been on for little over a month since i am the lucky one to see episode 5 today.. i know hopelessly behind here.. anywho last week i did a double up on Castle since i wanted to wait until i got my new laptop.... oh oh oh... this is the first post i do from this shiny new beast..

where was i.. oh right Castle.. (procastination everyone) in episode 3: Need to Know... it ends off with lovely couple Castle and Beckett sitting in the sofa talking... so here it is..

I WANT THAT BLOUSE!!!!

thing is i'm not a skinny girl.. and you know what i'm more than fine with that.. however nature did decide that normal body type wasn't the thing for me oh no.. i have the major curvies making it nearly impossible for me to wear basically anything that isn't around 2 or 3 sizes to big.. i could go get something that would fit on a normal curved girl my size but there is a small issue of me being slightly keen on actually breathing.. i know so stupid of me... anyway i have to stay clear of certain types of clothe so i don't look like a smurf trying to escape a mental institution (nice picture don't you think)

even giving these slight dress-code problems i very rarely envy others their body or for that fact hate my own.. not saying there are not days where i think it all sucks just that i have come to term with the phrase:

"Yeah i'm big... and you know what I DON'T CARE cause I'm beautiful just like that"

good on me right... but but but that blouse.. seriously! it is needless to say that i do think Stana has the most adorable smile and an absolute killer body to go with it.. this blouse they put her in just makes it all that more yummy and... well it is actually a rare occasion for me to go so girly in it at want a blouse.. very very rare..

now if you'll all excuse me i'm of to watch episode 5