Thing is i have a job-interview for nothing less than the dream job... so all nervous for tuesday right there... thing is i was asked to bring with me a job application. wuhuuuu that is so awesome... NO!
I HATE WRITING JOB APPLICATIONS!!!!!!
why you might ask.. well it is not that i'm bad at expressing myself in writing (at least i don't think so) it is however the whole part about putting down a description of who I am that bugs the hell out of me.. seriously it's not like you just have to put down who you are, which in my case can be hard enough. I also have to be overly positive about me so that this person who has never meet me thinks that it would be all dandy (ehm yeah) to meet little nobody me... thing is i don't see myself as all that special (friends of mine might beg the difference but i'm really not) and even if i were how on earth am i supposed to write it down without sounding like a complete jerk?
no i'm not just bad at selling myself it is literally breaking me apart... i can't express just how much i hate selling my self or how much it feels like tearing apart my soul.. i don't care what people in general think about me i clearly live by the code of them getting lost if i bug them.. but on the other hand i actually really want this job because it is what i wanna spend my life doing.. so why does i have to go through this excruciating process of breaking my soul in piece in the hope that someone i never meet and might never meet will like just a little bit of me...?
really i should make up a belief where it was against my faith to write applications but then again might need a whole lot of cash to survive on before that happens.. oh goodness this i complicated...
anywho thanks for reading this.. it sort of helped me get it of my chest.. now i just need to finish my letter to the devil ;)
