Tuesday, November 4, 2014

a special safe place

jumping right into it.. being that i have been working a lot lately.. or well actually just working normally but being slightly sick all the time it feels like a hell of a lot more than it is.. specially since i tend to be sleeping when i'm off.. that is if i'm not revisiting oldies...  anyway at work we have been talking about what i do when i'm off and sleeping seems like a really bad answer >.< and watching movies is a favorite pastime of mine... so we've been talking a bit about that.. my colleagues don't really get it.. most of them can't sit still or stay entertain long enough to watch a movie and some of them even fall a sleep when trying to..  it gets even harder for them to understand when i tell them that i don't just watch the movie.. i am doing so much stuff at the same time.. often sitting with 2 pcs on so that i can play games, write or some other stuff at the same time.. or i just sit and draw, fold paper or whatever hobby i got going on at the moment.. it does come as a shock that i don't have to focus fully on the movie i'm watching.. okay i admit it sometimes i do need to give my full attention to a movie and not just when i watch foreign movies. Sometimes the movies are so deep in riddles that you have to pay full attention.. but to me they are far apart..

so why is it that i find so much joy in just sitting there going through one movie after another? Honestly I don't know... think it might be the escape in it combined with the freedom to do other stuff... as a kid and teenager, you would pretty much always find me with my nose stuck in a book and believe me i am the proud owner of a small library section at home (being i just move i got aware of just how many books i really own) i loved the escape from reality you get from a book, the emotional roller coaster all the while being absolutely safe right there were you are sitting.. i still read from time to time but not in nearly the same amount that i used to.. it feels like i don't have the time for it anymore.. which is probably stupid because all it takes is for me to take the time for it.. and this is where movies come in.. cause watching a movie gives the same feeling of escape, of getting through different emotion.. the difference is i am not bound to it like i am a book.. i can be doing other stuff at the same time.. making it feel like it is not as time consuming as a book.. although the reality is i get way to little done while i'm watching movies.. playing games just don't seem to cut it in the whole get your stuff together theme.. 

one of the things my colleagues had trouble with was how do i stay awake.. well thing is sure if the movie does not catch me i will get bored.. very bored in deed and sometimes i have to shut it down because it does not feel fair to the movie that i am bored.. thing is the movie does not have to be boring for me to bored.. sometimes it just isn't what catch me at the time and then it is simply better to wait until the mood is actually there... but falling a sleep.. 

well if i'm so tired that i could sleep standing then i should not engage in watching a movie.. i will fall a sleep no matter how interesting the movie might be.. ex.? first time i tried to watch Sherlock Holmes with Robert Downey Jr. i fell asleep before the movie hit the 10 min mark.. I LOVE that movie.. and was really trying to stay awake but ended up sleeping on the floor under the coffee table all the same..

another time i might fall asleep is when watching my absolute favorites.. i currently have 2 movies that i know by heart and if i put them on then i'm gonna fall asleep.. it is a sure thing and i'm not completely sure why.. being that i know almost every line in them i think my brain might see them as a safe place and go into slumber.. this is however just a theory... and when i wake up after i know everything that has happened i know the lines even though i am very much aware that it has been quite a while since i last actually heard them.. 

anywho.. this has just been me thinking about weird stuff.. 

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